Dancing In the moonlight, everybody's feeling warm and bright, it's such a fine and natural sight, everybody's dancing in the moonlight...

mood: Happy

Listening to: Dancing in the moonlight - Toploader

It's one of those post where I start off with apologizing for a long hiatus. Well I've been really busy with college and practices for a competition.

What competition you ask? It's this song writing competition my singing group thingie joined,we work humping hard for it, and we got into the final, which will be aired live on 24th June on Astro channel 19, yea, chinese songs, but the songs are nice! There's gonna be a sms voting thingie so please tune in and vote for us if you are free, thank you :)

You know what's the best part of this? There are 12 songs in the final, 6 will be eliminated and the other 6 will be sent to Taiwan to compete against other countries! My group had won prizes in Taiwan in the past 3 years, but I didn't follow them for I was either having exam or was busy or was in Hong Kong, so this year I might stand a chance to go, wheee... so wish me luck ;)

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So you can tell that I've been really busy and tired. This doesn't mean that I'm as emo as I know I was before, surprizingly, I've been really happy, and I guess because that I'm happy, good things are starting to come my way.

Even those few minor undesired incidents and those few bitches in college didn't bother me at all, an improvement I guess. I switched my focus on my studies and the competition and it worked! The only down side is that I don't get to see my friends , especially Tiff, Pau and Jin much since I'm seriously that busy, I miss you guys a humping lots!! (see, I've been trying to find words to substitute "fuck")

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Oh yea, Justin & Shiwei came back from the States and some of my friends in Aussie came back too, so gonna have lots of gathering and catching up with them. Glad you guys are back man, welcome home.

Tiff is leaving soon though... was on the phone with her just now and when she mentioned it, I could tell that she's sad... Gonna miss her a humping lot, but chances are high that I'm gonna see her there in January, considering the fact that I'm applying to Buffalo as well.

Oh shit, application... really have to stop procrastinating so much.

Anyway... gonna sleep now, I'm humping tired, will post pictures if there's any, hhaha, and I'll update more , I ,yet again, promise.

You think that I don't know that you read my blog?

Do you really think that she wouldn't tell me what you told her?

Do you think just by writing that and tagging will gain back her trust?

Do whatever you want or say whatever you wanna say darling,

cause now you're just a fool to me.

I see pain, i see need,i see liars and thieves abuse power with greed ; i had hope, i believed,but i'm beginning to think i've been deceived...

Mood: Recovered, again.

Listening to : No More Sorrow - Linkin Park

And so the summer semester started.

I realised I'm just not good at blogging bout things that happens in my life, like blogging bout what I did with my friends or what exactly happened during college or my day out. I like to write bout how I feel and little things that inspire me in my life, might sound a little like a poser but yea, that's what I write about.

For instance, I was driving home that day after the photoshoot thing with Tiffany. I switched on my car cd player, My Chemical Romance was in it, "I Don't Love You", those of you who are close to me would know that MCR always reminds me of a certain someone, and so I switch the player to the radio mode. Guess what, Fly fm was playing that exact same song, it's fated I guess,instantly those memories flooded back, and I hummed along to the song. After a short moment of bad singing-along, this thought hits me : usually when I listen to MCR songs, memories will flood and usually me being a cry baby will start tearing... but this time, I thought of all the things that related to him, and I smiled, yea, I smiled not cried. Then I told myself : " Congratulation , you just recovered for good. "

I'm out of rehab.

I'm hooked on to you, I need a fix, I can't take it, just one more hit i promise I can deal with it.

Mood : Relapse, if you get what I mean.

Listening to: Addicted - Kelly Clarkson

Have you ever been addicted to something? Be it an object, an action or a person, whatever. So addicted that it crash you when you don't get enough of it. If you say no, you just never seriously got addicted to something or someone.

Then you realized that you're in too deep, you can't pull yourself out and so you get into the rehab stage. You do whatever you can to keep your mind off that particular thing or person. You get help from people to talk you out of your addiction. You get yourself busy with all kind of activities. That's the rehab stage.

Next you recover. Your rehabilitation plan worked out. You can finally live without the object or person and all of a sudden life seem so much more and happier. However , this can have two endings. One,that object or person is out of your mind and that's it, it's out of your life. Two, what you did during rehab was just repressing your needs and thoughts so that people around you wouldn't be worried or call you silly, and very often this will lead to a relapse.

To me, the relapse is the most depressing stage. Not "oh my god, without this I'm gonna die" or "oh my god, I don't have this object or person so I'm gonna cry like there's no tomorrow" kind of depressing, but that kind of feeling you get when you realized all you've done before this had no use, you're still not out of it, that object or person is still in your mind . What's even more depressing is knowing that you can't have that object or person you want no matter how much you plead.

Go on, laugh, or even be sarcastic, I wouldn't care, cause I'm relapsing.

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses her blanket, but I've gotta get a move on with my life,it's time to be a big girl now...

Mood: Recovering, if you get what I mean.

Listening To : Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie

Chillex, Janice, Chill. It's just a tire punture, and it's all ok now.

You were lucky that you only discovered the tire puncture when you were at the petrol station, it's so much better than stranded in the middle of the road with no fuel,a puntured tire and a useless brother. Plus,your mum actually came to see if you are okay, so consider yourself lucky. I know, I know... you've been pretty unlucky lately, and that all your close friends, except Jin, had a tire punctured this year, but it shouldn't bring you down :)

" I hope you know, I hope you know, That this has nothing to do with you

It's personal, myself and I,We got some straightening out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket

But I've gotta get a move on with my life,It's time to be a big girl now

And big girls don't cry"

- Big Girls Dont Cry by Fergie

I know I shouldn't miss you... but somehow I still do.

Hurt at first, a little bit, but now I'm so over, so over it.

Mood: Happy
Listening to: Over it - Katherine McPhee

Langkawi was awesome possom. Since I'm such a procrastinator, and if you

want to know what happened during the trip, you can read bout it on

Tiff's Blog or Tim's Blog.
They did a really good account on it , kudos to them :)

So yea, haven't been updating much , I promise I'll write more.

Oh yea, have you heard that PEOPLE's 2007 Most Beautiful Person is none other then my favorite girl in Hollywood ( Yea, to me she beats Keira, though I love Keira too), Drew Barrymore!!

I mean, look at her, ain't she gorgeous? And this is her without make up on.

She's naturally gorgeous! People at PEOPLE sure have good taste in what is beautiful. Drew Barrymore is beautiful both inside and outside. She's positive and she shine in her own special way and that's what I love about her. That's what I call beautiful, not hot body,designer clothes and thick make up. For this, I think she totally deserves the title, congrats Drew.

Here are some quotes from her that I like:

"There's something liberating about not pretending. Dare to embarrass yourself. Risk."

"I believe in fate. I believe that everything happens for a reason, but I think it's important to seek out that reason - that's how you learn."

"Life is very interesting. In the end, some of your greatest pains become your greatest strengths"

"As much light as I have inside me, there's just as much darkness, I'm afraid. There's a polarity, and I still have demons to work out."

"I'd rather be a few pounds heavier and enjoy life than be worried all the time."

Aww... I just love her :)

Here are a few more pictures of beautiful celebrity that made it into the PEOPLE 2007 Most Beautiful People list without make up. Enjoy :)

Rachel Bilson

Eva Longoria

Rashida Jones

Rihanna

Katherine McPhee

Jessica SimpsonJessica BielJessica Alba

See the trend? I'm considering naming my future child , if it's a girl, Jessica, hahhahaahaa....