A memory remains, just a tiny spark, I give it all my oxygen, to let the flames begin.

mood: bored.

listening to: let the flames begin - paramore

I've been thinking lately, that where do I stand, when it comes to the evaluation men always make on the idea of an ideal woman. My conclusion to it was, screw it, there's no such thing as an ideal woman.

The traditional ideal woman has to have a hot body, a pretty face, knows how to cook, dresses well, does housework well, feminine and all that jazz, and I'm nothing like that. Now I'm not saying that I'm denying this idea of an ideal woman simply because I am not like that, but there is so much more to the meaning of being a woman than just being that.

There's no ideal when it comes to being a woman, every single one of us is different, we are individuals. The question is should we conform to the traditional typical idea of an ideal and not be ourselves, or should we embrace our differences and individualism? If you ask me, all of us are ideal women, we are all special in our own way and deserve all the best thing in the world.

I love blasting rock music in my room, my room is sometimes messy, I don't really cook for i enjoy other people's cooking, I only do house chores when I feel like it (which is very rare), I am not skinny and delicate, I'm blur, I'm not feminine, my skin is bad, I don't really know how to put make up on my face, I love designing clothes, I love adventures, I don't shower more than once a day, I don't speak and laugh softly, I'm loud, I'm lame, I'm not the typical girl that you would like.

I'm just me. I'm ideal to me.

I'm sick at seeing all the women trying to look and act like each other, I need variation. I do get side-tracked once in a while, being someone I'm not, but hey , I am always back on track to become who I want to be and I am learning not to care what people think.

Think. conform or non-conform?

When I try to face it when I wake up I hate the way reality sets in, god I wish you could hold me, through the seven days of lonely.

mood: Jolly jolly joy joy

listening to: seven days of lonely - I Nine

SPRING BREAK!!!!

it's awesome. seriously.

Finally I got to rest a lot, went to work a little, then rest a lot again. I think I'm really good at this, being a bum that is, so good that I deserve a bum award. If in music you get a grammy, in acting you get academy, then in bumming you get a bummy, muahahaha.... ok fine that was lame.

Look! It's the sun! *jump around mad*

The sun's out so Janice camwhore.

A new shirt that I got online, absolutely love it. Bet you guys know why muahahaa...

It's been pretty warm lately, I can feel that spring is coming soon. Please let it come soon, it will make me a very happy woman. I even got my spring and summer clothes ready already!

"I feel it in my fingers, i feel it in my toes...."

hahaha... I'm so happy and lame , which is a good thing. I'm glad that everything that I was worried or sad about is long gone now, I'm feeling super and mighty and jolly right now thus no one can take me down, wheeeeee......

I think I should go and do some work now, the long promised fashion photographer post will come soon, I yet again promise, once I'm done with homework I'll post that up.

Have a good one people, cheers.

I love you, still, very much.

I don't want to wait for our lives to be over I want to know right know what will it be

mood: happy

listening to: i don't want to wait - paula cole

So life in Buffalo so far has been good, had lots of fun time with friends here and fun experiences. Has my share of down time as well cause i just miss him too damn much and there are things about myself that i just need to reflect on.

I started working on campus last week, and I took up extra shifts this week because I want to make more money so i can have some savings for myself to spend and yet not spend so much of my dad's money. Tiffany's working at where i'm working at as well. It's tiring but it is actually fun working there, seriously. It's worth the hardwork for they pay me pretty well, ka-ching.

As i promised , here are lots of pictures to kill ur modem:

My bed...

This is the other side of the room

I shall introduce my friends here...

This is Alvin. Compare the pizza to his size, yea, pizzas here are huge.

This is Zul.

Zul, Arcky and Ganesh.

Kelvern and Yuen Leng. Yuen Leng's my lovely housemate

At Forever 21.

Yuen Leng cooked for me hehehehe...

She just got her camera that day so she was very happy. This was taken at Gin Gin's , our fav place for chinese food here.

Yuen Leng, Tiffany ,Sarah and moi before Stefano's Birthday party.

Stef-who u asked? That's him over there, next to him is Nithya, his girlfriend. Nithya cooks really well

Us being stupid yet still look good haha

Sarah, Yuen Leng & Rie in the car. Never put a bunch of girls at the back seat of a car, this is what will happen.

IHOP (international house of pancakes) can beat Paddington house of pancakes anytime

Curry Chicken at Gin Gin's. It actually pretty good, not really spicy but it's good cause i can't really take spicy food anyway.

Prawns in fried eggs, yummy.... Yuen Leng, I want to go to gin gin now

Gin gin's bubble tea can beat a lot of bubble tea store in Malaysia. You can actually taste the tea, unlike some bubble tea place sells powdered and watered down bubble tea which sucks.

One fine day, smartypants Tiffany suggested that we should wear bikinis in the snow and eat ice cream.

proudly taken by me ahahaa, Adrian you suck!

We rock Buffalo's socks off.

Cold Stone sells good ice-cream. They need good spokeperson. We need sponsorship for ice-cream. According to logic, Cold Stone should get us to be their spokepeople.

While waiting for the Green Line. What's the Green Line you ask? Wait I'll show you

THE green line, the bus that take us to and fro from uni to where yuen leng parks her car.

SNOW!

When there's snow, you have to scrape ice or snow off your car.

Oh, and that's Jonathan. Yea they were scraping the snow while im in the car ahhaha.... sorry la, got two scraper only and I was cold so yuen leng asked me to wait inside hehe

We went to check out some baby clothing at the Fashion Outlet Mall near Niagara falls. Erm, that's actually a baby skirt on yuen's head.

Those are her crazy side.

And this is her pretty side.

Yea, they are my housemate and my neighbour.

The Gorgeousness of Sarah. Sarah so want to steal my camera, taalalaluuluulaaa...

See what he sent me? it even smell like him, but baby, next time write my name in front.

Okay, this should be it, if your modem is still ok then congratulation, if not then get a new one. I need to go study for tomorrow's test, there are two of them, arrggghhh... but luckily no work tomorrow because I have used up my 20 hours of work per week, yea, I'm working hard so i can get a nintendo wii and guitar hero you see?

I have a few post coming up though, so check often, I promise you if you appreciate nice fashion potraits, you'll love it.

I love you baby, and I miss you a hell lot. Come here fast, I need you.

we will fall together from the building's ledge,never looking back at what we've done,we'll say it was love

mood: i miss you.

listening to : skyway avenue - we are kings

Here I am writing from New York. Buffalo is a cute city, everything is flat, not many tall buildings around and lots of snow. Well it looks boring, but somehow I love its simplicity, and people are pretty nice so far. I went pass my uni yesterday since it's on the way to my apartment, it's really near, I could walk there, but that will take 15 minutes and it's cold out there, like below zero degree celcius kinda cold, so i think I'll just take the shuttle to uni.

I had my first meal ever in Buffalo last night, pizza! Pizzas here are huge! Alvin is staying in my housemate's room (yuen leng's) at the moment, till either tiff or yuen leng is back, so he's been taking care of me. He and i are suppose to be having brunch now with Zul and the others, but alvin is still sleeping. I have no idea how I woke up so early, maybe I slept too much on the plane and I had a 4-hour nap yesterday afternoon.

So things are pretty awesome so far, will update more soon. Oh shit , still got the prevous stuff to blog about, oh well...

baby, i miss you.

No frustration on this vacation,this destination, this correlation,no consalation, only sensation,paradise.

mood: Chilling :)

listrening to : Paradise - Fergie

Gonna be in Langkawi for four days and will be leaving to New York on the 4th. I know, I know, I haven't been blogging much, that's because I've been spending lots of time with family, friends and the boyfriend. However , I promise you, you who is reading this, that I'll update you when I'm back from the duty free heaven.

Update to come:

Hong Kong trip

Outings with the boyfriend

Waifon Saffron's birthday dinner @ palate pallate

and of course

langkawi :)

Till then, ciao.

Is it possible to put this night to tune, and move it to you?

mood: laughing

listening to: Pachuca sunrise - Minus the Bear

hey wassup..Ramco here.i'll be your guest blogger for this time.Its my first time blogging so excuse me for my lameness..Since she is too lazy to blog for MY BIRTHDAY day out..i was like "you know what, i'll do it".

The day started like every other day..woke up, check my computer and she was already nudging me on messenger "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!....NUDGE!!" .haha...ok, it's my birthday...finally...after going through a stale year of 2007, i do deserve some nudging. And man, i cant believe that im 20..can even hear my bones cracking already..damn..i need a cane already..haha

So she decided to pick me up and reminded me to bring the camera so she can blog about it when she got home...errr..okie..haha. Rule#1, u do not let a guy like me sit next to u when youre driving. Rule#2, u do not let a guy like me sit next to u if he has a camera on his hand. This is what happened

"whee!! Happy birthday!"

"Whee..baby, im driving la..cut it out.."

"i mean like seriously..."

So we went for lunch at little penang and were really pissed off with all the people around since its like so packed and everyone is taking their time walking slowly...strolling around and not letting people pass..if we accidentally brush up against them they will stare at u with that strange look even though we said sorry...damn idiots..sayang was like "@$#@%^...damn uncles and aunties..so free..go home la??Am i missing something here??".Suddenly, she was like "oh..50%!!"...no wonder...hmm..

So we decided to bail klcc and head to pavillion..hmm..quite a bad idea rite?..new place..weekend..hmm...as we arrive there i looked at her and she smiled..yesss..more people..just what we needed..haha..so we were like..fine..lets just go in...luckily on the upper stairs there were not that many people..phew..i can predict that all the uncles in boxers and flip flops and aunties who just woke up and didnt shower were hogging j co's since i can see j co's boxes everywhere..hahaha

Pavillion was great..we walked up and down and looked through the shops that was available there..i was quite surprised with the selections of hoodies that they offer there this time..wow..cool..seriously need to go shopping..

i want this one..so kewwl

Apparently the shop just opened a few days..they didnt have any mirrors at all..and the fitting room was closed as well..yess..so we decided to take every picture of clothes to see whether it fits..haha..u know us...

too big..

too corny??

we realized that we cant take any pictures inside a clothing shop...sorry

She kept asking me what do i want to eat for dinner since shes buying me dinner..hmm..she offered chilli's..but...klcc..alot of people..hmmm..i'll pass..i know!!..lets eat something random...treat me food at jalan alor..hahaha..she thought that i was joking but looking at my serious face.."okie..i can do that..thats random".yea..u know instead eating chillis..lets have a feast..haha

i thought we ordered not that much but it will totally hit u when u finished all the food and realize that u cant stand up..that was orgasmic i tell u..literally the best birthday i have ever had..

she didnt finished her rice..

yup.

this is what happens when youre too full..

wait for it..

there u go.

We decided to have shisha after dinner at ampang to chill abit since we were too full and after that she drove me home, wished me happy birthday again and she left.That was seriously the best birthday experience that i have ever had.Good food,great surroundings,Great gal. i love u babe..thats all from me..cheers

Janice: My fav picture of ramco hahaha

I dont want to miss one smile,I dont want to miss one kiss,I just want to be with you,right here with you, just like this

mood: tired.

listening to: I don't want to miss a thing - aerosmith

This has got to be the most tiring week ever. Speech, Music and communication cramp together, can die ok? At least I have settled the previous two, and now I only have communication to work on, 1500 words essay and a presentation based on it by tomorrow, can die also ok? I'm gonna blog now and work on it later, because the queen of procrastination said so, and I am the queen of procrastination.

Was playing msn "sudoku too" with sayang (the guy one) just now at Starbucks, there was this bunch of guys next to my table. One of the guy said loudly "Dating girl ah? Only the first month need to say things like 'i would die for you' or 'you jump I jump' one la! after you get into her pants, then don't need to care so much d one" Well , he thought that I'm listening to songs on my comp with my earphones on, the truth is I wasn't playing any song at that time so I heard every damn thing he said.

Then his friend said that he skipped class yesterday for his girlfriend. Then the jerk said "I'm not hanginig out with you anymore jor, where can guy skip class for girl one? I never skip class for girl before , u know why? because they all will skip class to see me" I'm sorry but at this point I was already very disgusted by him, you have no idea how fugly he looks, I wondered to myself which stupid girl would skip class to see him when the lecturer might be even more good looking then him.

A girl then walked into Starbucks buying a drink, he ogled her up and down and said to his friend "You want to borrow my car and money to take your girlfriend out right? ask her for her number for me then I borrow you." The friend just smiled embarassingly, for the guy was talking really loud.

Hey Mr. Big Shot, if you are so great why not you go ask for her number yourself, and stop whistling when any decent girl walk in or saying degrading statement about women . Seriously I wonder who would date you, you fugly sexist! Oh and for johnny sake can you speak softly? This is starbucks not pasar malam!

Jerk.

I got baby started playing sudoku and he's enjoying it, hahaha... man I tell you this game is addictive. Speaking of him, his birthday is this coming saturday, greet him happy birthday here if you want to :)

Holiday coming soon, can't wait. Flying back to Hong Kong on the 9th and coming back on the 16th. Then langkawi on the 27th till 30th. After that , flying off to buffalo on the 4th of january.... gosh, that is fast. Yes baby I heard you, krispy kreme from hong kong, roger that.

*~*

Some time ago I was watching all the britney spear videos, from Baby One More Time to Gimme More. What happened to this girl?

I miss her old self, but then again, she's a grown up and she can make her own choice to be what she choose to be, but I can't help but wonder , is she happy? Is it her own fault that she became like what she is now? or the paparazzi? or the pressure? If she could get back the kind of power she had when she was on stage back then, the kind of dance she could do and the kind of song that instantly got stuck in my mind once I heard it, I wouldn't mind getting her album again, or get tickets to her concert.

I want to see you dance like a pro again, not that crappy performance you did in VMA, you were so lost like you have no idea what you were doing on stage.

Wake up britney, there's so much more in you.

You, you who are reading, what do you think?