Sunday, August 26, 2007

We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs,and they'll think it's just cause we're young,and we'll feel so alive.

mood: merdeka
listening to: The great escape - boys like girls

How have I been you ask? Good, if you cut out the parts with my mum in it. She really is a pain in the ass, I used to cry because of her, but now I just couldn't be bothered anymore, I've become so numb.

On a lighter note, I had a great time with the students from Ohio University. They are Andrew, Sean, Ray,Molly and Max, if any of you , by any chance, is reading this, I really love hanging out with you guys :) Will post pictures up when I got pictures from them.

Thanks to them, I got closer to Estee too, which is good, I never knew that I could be this close to her, and she's such a sweet and funny girl, you should see her when she's drunk, she's the cutest drunk person I ever seen, Andrew agreed on this.

And if you're wondering if I'm still hurt because of him, nah, I've been way better. Told you I'm a tough cookie *wink* I'm a spartan woman, muakakakaka

merdeka.

Monday, August 20, 2007

Well this is not ur fault,but if im without u then I will feel so small,and if u have to go,always know that u shine brighter than anyone does.

the mood: Alright,still.
Listening to: Brighter - paramore

No. He said no. Oh well... I rather be single for now anyway, at least till I transfer to the states. No worries, you know I'm a tough cookie :)

My hopefully final semester started. I have a good feeling about it, it's gonna be fun especially the cross-cultural communication class, ADP brought in 5 students from Ohio University to join us for one semester, and they are all doing this subject. Each of them has been assigned to one host to take care of them and bring them around KL through out the whole semester. I'm one of the hosts, Estee and Haruka are too. Well Mr. Vijaya said the course is gonna include a lot of outings and it's very activity based, can't wait for class to starts.

Went back to college today. Finally got my results and timetable for this semester. Miss Su-ann introduced me to Molly, the girl from Ohio that I'm hosting. She's really nice and I found out that we share a lot of things in common, she plays guitar and I play drums, heck, we can even form a band, hahahaaaa.... Estee even told me that we dress kind of alike.

Speaking of college today, chilling with Ryan and the others was fun, we got so bored we even sang loudly in subang square. I also found out that Ryan the Madcat loves orange too, both the fruit and the color, just like me!

All in all, it was a good day, good enough to keep my mind off things.

You love me, but you can't commit, what the fuck?

Saturday, August 18, 2007

All you have to do is hold me, and you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be If you'll trust me, love me, let me, maybe, maybe...

mood: scared yet anticipating.
listening to: maybe - kelly clarkson

That woman! Grrrrr-oaannn.....!!!

10 things I hate about staying with my mum:

1. She waking me up early in the morning by knocking on the door like a mad ram. It's my holiday for god sake! it's not like I can wake up this late when the new semester starts!
Besides, she wakes me up for the most random reasons, for example ,today, she just woke me up and let this guy into my room and spray some smelly thing around my room, I wasn't even awake yet! I later found out that it's some anti-pest thing, she should have let me know earlier right? grrrr....not to forget sometimes she just wake me up so that she can nag me even more... please la, if you're a morning person, so be it, because I'm not a morning person during my holiday! I can't be forced out of bed to get scolding and be happy for the rest of the day, thank you.

2. Forcing me to clear up my brother's mess. I hate it. It's because of this my brother has no sense of responsibility. If i complain, I get more scolding, she'll tell me that he's my brother and I should help. So every single time he leaves tissues, dirty dishes, wrappers and what not around , I have to clean it. Seriously,wtf?

3. Force me to do chores when she knows that I'm not free. Excuse me, who's the one who has all the time in the world cause she's not working now? and who is the one who has college, and she only has a pathetic two weeks holiday? I'll keep my room clean that's for sure, but stop asking me to do your laundry , wash your plates or sweep and mop the floor of your room.Sorry la, I'm not your maid, you can't order me like that, if you want one, get one yourself.

4. She always complain that I go out too much, while she's the one who goes out every night. She also does not let me make my own decision.I'm freaking 20 ok? It's not like I can't take care of myself at all, I'm no longer that little girl who tag around wherever mummy goes , I want my own life too. She very well know that I'm just like her - someone who likes to go out and have her own freedom - then freaking let me be! If she thinks that it's a motherly responsibility to be all overprotective and controlling, someone please let her know that she's very wrong.

5. She complaining about me sticking too many posters and pictures in my room. It's MY room ok? Why can't I decorate it the way I love?

6. She loves to jump to conclusions. I reaaaallly hate this one, this is one of the reasons why I don't really want to talk much to her nowadays. Pisses me off.

7. Pms. She can be all lovely and happy and cool and *insert wonderful traits* for one second, and just when I thought it's safe to talk to her, her gives me a 180 degree change, and become all hot-temper and snappy and *insert bad traits*

8. She treats my friends very very very well, like they are her children and I'm not. Why can't she just be nice to me too?

9. When I need to buy anything or pay for anything, she'll always say : " ask from your dad" or " remember to get the money back from your dad". Sometimes I wonder,how much does she spend on me?
Education? no my dad's supporting me. Groceries and bills and clothes and house rent? no, my dad sends money over every month. Phone bills? no, both my brother's and my line are being paid by my dad's card. Car? She always claim back the expenses from my dad. I seriously pity my dad.

10. Though all these hate, I still love her. Shit la, this mother - daughter bond thing is never going away. You know why I've been avoiding talking to her? Cause we always end up in fights. I mean I know once I transfer to the states the gap between me and my mum is gonna be wider, and I really wouldn't want to make things worst now, that's why I'm avoiding her to avoid fights. In a way, she's slowly pushing me away from her. That's bad.

Sorry to bore you with this ranting of mine, but I just need to, maybe it's the bad anti-pest spray smell.

Please give me a yes, I'm still holding on to the 50% of hope. I think we deserve a chance.

Monday, August 06, 2007

Life can show no mercy,it can tear your soul apart,it can make you feel like you’ve gone crazy,but you’re not...

Mood: Awesome Possum!
Listening to : Lost - Michael Buble

Summer Holiday!! Awesome Possum!!!
Wheeeee........

Celebrated my birthday at QBA @ Westin KL, had a blast there, will post pictures up once I get them from Albert the wacky ape-y monkey.

Oh yea, speaking of Albert, him being his awesome self, he got me a Rubik's cube!



And so I decided to mix it up and start solving. I started with getting the 2X2 cube then I got the 3X2 cube and eventually I got one side all solved without upsetting the 3X2 cube, which means I got a whole layer! I was so excited I called Albert to tell him. Guess what, he then told me that I will need to google for the formula from then on..."F@#%$!" cause there's still no internet connection at my new home ( Oh yea, in case you don't know, I moved to Bandar Utama).


Thank god for Albert the monkey , who sent me the formulas through sms, or else I wouldn't be able to sleep the whole night because it bugs me not solving it. Hahaa.... he asked me to take a photo with it as a proof of me solving the cube by myself for the first time in my life, haha.

~*~

Holiday has been good so far,here's what I did:

1. Unpacking and arranging stuff at the new place ( Okay, this wasn't that good, but still, I kind of like my new room.)

2. Drumming improved! Ian, my drum sensei started to teach me songs, I'm learning "chop suey!" by system of a down now, pretty tough, but still I'm glad that I'm starting to play songs.

3. Sinfully splurged, for I got ang pow from relatives for my birthday.I got a dorothy perkins white bag, a zara black silky shorts and a forever 21 tee that says "more candy less war" :) sorry la, I'm a girl what, sure get excited over new purchase one k?

4. Hanging out with Tiff. She's leaving soon :( Sayang came to my place that day and helped me on unpacking, then we went to the curve to settle her farewell thing

5. Rubik's cube! hahaha

6. Bummed and bummed and bummed, oh wait, I still have 3 dvds to watch!


okay gonna go and bum somemore now, ciiaaooo...