Sunday, March 23, 2008

A memory remains, just a tiny spark, I give it all my oxygen, to let the flames begin.

mood: bored.
listening to: let the flames begin - paramore




I've been thinking lately, that where do I stand, when it comes to the evaluation men always make on the idea of an ideal woman. My conclusion to it was, screw it, there's no such thing as an ideal woman.



The traditional ideal woman has to have a hot body, a pretty face, knows how to cook, dresses well, does housework well, feminine and all that jazz, and I'm nothing like that. Now I'm not saying that I'm denying this idea of an ideal woman simply because I am not like that, but there is so much more to the meaning of being a woman than just being that.


There's no ideal when it comes to being a woman, every single one of us is different, we are individuals. The question is should we conform to the traditional typical idea of an ideal and not be ourselves, or should we embrace our differences and individualism? If you ask me, all of us are ideal women, we are all special in our own way and deserve all the best thing in the world.


I love blasting rock music in my room, my room is sometimes messy, I don't really cook for i enjoy other people's cooking, I only do house chores when I feel like it (which is very rare), I am not skinny and delicate, I'm blur, I'm not feminine, my skin is bad, I don't really know how to put make up on my face, I love designing clothes, I love adventures, I don't shower more than once a day, I don't speak and laugh softly, I'm loud, I'm lame, I'm not the typical girl that you would like.


I'm just me. I'm ideal to me.


I'm sick at seeing all the women trying to look and act like each other, I need variation. I do get side-tracked once in a while, being someone I'm not, but hey , I am always back on track to become who I want to be and I am learning not to care what people think.


Think. conform or non-conform?

Saturday, March 15, 2008

When I try to face it when I wake up I hate the way reality sets in, god I wish you could hold me, through the seven days of lonely.

mood: Jolly jolly joy joy
listening to: seven days of lonely - I Nine


SPRING BREAK!!!!
it's awesome. seriously.


Finally I got to rest a lot, went to work a little, then rest a lot again. I think I'm really good at this, being a bum that is, so good that I deserve a bum award. If in music you get a grammy, in acting you get academy, then in bumming you get a bummy, muahahaha.... ok fine that was lame.


Look! It's the sun! *jump around mad*

The sun's out so Janice camwhore.

A new shirt that I got online, absolutely love it. Bet you guys know why muahahaa...

It's been pretty warm lately, I can feel that spring is coming soon. Please let it come soon, it will make me a very happy woman. I even got my spring and summer clothes ready already!

"I feel it in my fingers, i feel it in my toes...."

hahaha... I'm so happy and lame , which is a good thing. I'm glad that everything that I was worried or sad about is long gone now, I'm feeling super and mighty and jolly right now thus no one can take me down, wheeeeee......

I think I should go and do some work now, the long promised fashion photographer post will come soon, I yet again promise, once I'm done with homework I'll post that up.

Have a good one people, cheers.

I love you, still, very much.