When you go , would you even turn to say " i don't love you , like I did yesterday."

Mood: Better than Friday midnight.

Listening to: I don't love you - My Chemical Romance

And so this is the end.

I will not have any feelings for you anymore, I will try my best to totally let go. I don't cry for you any more, I guess I just needed an answer, thank you for being so honest with me. Don't you worry, you know I'm stronger than I seem to be. It might seem funny to many people, four days of perfect dates and it lasted me so long, I guess I was just a fling to you, but you weren't to me. Now, I'm letting go, and I'm glad that we are still friends. I just want you to remember me, and that I once like you this much, then I'll have no regrets. Thank you for all the memories and take care.

Goodbye, so long, goodbye.

Your memory will carry on ,we'll carry on ,and in my heart I can't contain it,the anthem won't explain it.

Mood: Reminiscing

Listening To: Welcome To The Black Parade - My Chemical Romance

I have a love/hate relationship with reminiscing.

I love sitting down alone, listen to songs that bring back memories, no matter good, bad, sweet, bitter... anything, as long as it's something that once made a great impact on my senses. I love it when those feelings hit me again when I'm reminiscing, they might make me cry or laugh or smile sweetly again, just like back then.

I know, you realistic people out there might say that there's no point in looking back, sentimental values means nothing. Sorry but sentimental values means a lot to me.

However, as much as I love it, I hate it too... just as I'm smiling to those time I had, another feeling hits. I suddenly realized that there's no way I could go back to those sweet time again, I realized there's nothing I can do to erase guilt and faults, I realized that there's no way that special someone is coming back to me again... well , you get my drift... then the hatred towards reminiscing crawls out , and I'll move on, again.

Confused condition yet to be solved, unanswered question yet to be answered.

Oh well... till my next reminiscing moment.

~ * ~

2 more hours to your birthday... Have a blast there, get yourself drunk.

Happy 20th Birthday Nicholas...

Hugz and Muackz

A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins , I will never ask if you don't ever tell me, I know you well enough to know you never loved me.

Mood: Irritated

Listening To: Cute without the "E" - Taking Back Sunday

Guess what, someone stole my business communication final report , and now I have to do it again.

I know, what the f**king f*ck hell right?

My deadline for passing up the report again is tomorrow morning at 7am, I love you Mr. V, I love you. Luckily Tiff helped me by writing the intro, you don't know how grateful I am.

As for those of you who are close to me would know that it has been a few really tough , stressful weeks for me. However, thanks to stress, I found my 10 favorite stress relievers...

1. Heroes

- I can't explain why everytime I watch it I become very happy.

2. Jello

- i love them, they makes me happy, yummy. Come to think of it, I only ate jello last night for dinner, no wonder I woke up hungry this morning.

3. Reading blogs

- I got friends who blog bout interesting, entertaining stuff.

4. Blogging

- well, maybe my posts aren't that interesting, but blogging is like letting out your thoughts, which is good for stress relieving.

5. Johnny Depp

- you have no idea how amazing my desktop/wallpaper looks now, everytime I look at it I fall for Johnny even more.

6. Funny songs

- songs like Bananaphone and Lollipop lift my spirit, especially bananaphone, damn funny and catchy.

7. Sleep

- something that I need badly, my dark circles are like my best friends, they never leave me.

8. Clubbing

- drinks, dance, music, fun people, hilarious stories... what more can a stressed girl ask for?

9. Stoning

- it IS a great stress reliever, I'm serious.

10. Procrastinating

- come to think of it, stress relieving is like an excuse for procrastinating, isn't it? Well, that doesn't stop me from blogging though the freaking work is due at 7am.

So yea , that's about it, gonna go back to more typing.

Bleh... I want Jello.

For what I've done, I'll start again, and whatever pain may come. Today this ends,I'm forgiving what I've done.

mood: happy happy

Listening to : What I've Done - Linkin Park

This is what I'm craving for at the moment.The W880i... yummy.

Theater final's over, kind of having post-production syndrome now. It was a great play and we got great feedbacks. Well I got a low mark, but so what, the audiences totally enjoyed the play, that's what important.

I'm doing Theater 102, and I'm playing Viola from Shakespeare's 12 Nights, my favorite Shakespeare's character. The play is gonna be in June, so come and watch it if you could :)

Maison night again on Thursday, it was eventful, but I'm glad that everything turned out okay. It was fun, didn't get drunk and turned out to be the one making sure everyone is fine.

Ju asked whether fire is hot.

Nick said : " I'm fine.... just dizzy..."

So clearly, they were the ones who got high and wasted. Hahaa... Ju I'm not defaming you okay? It's just that you're so adorable and funny when you get high, and at least I'm not telling the washroom story here... ok I should stop here, hehe.

Some people are happy drunk, they are funny when they are high.

Some people are psycho drunk, they beat people up when they are drunk.

Some people are emo drunk, they get all emo and cry.

Some people are stone drunk, they just sit, stone and erm, stone.

Some people are crazy drunk, they tend to do stupid , crazy stuff they wouldn't do when they are not drunk.

Some people are kinky drunk, they get all horny.

So which kind of drunk are you? ;)

Thought you should know, I've tried my best to let go of you, but I don't want to, I just gotta say it all before I go, Just so you know.

Mood: Not so fine, need more sleep.

Listening to: Just So You Know - Jesse McCartney

(Fine, he might not be someone that I usually listen to , but this song is honestly quite okay)

Guess what, one of my friends is getting married.

I'm really really happy for her :)

Me and Tiff was talking to this twelve-year-old little girl that day...

Me : " when I was your age, I love Spice Girls and Britney Spears!"

*Girl look at me innocently*

Tiff : " Do you know who spice girls are?"

Girl : " No."

A short strong no. I stopped and look at her then to Tiff, she was looking at me with mouth open too. It's Spice Girls! I used to have their doll figures and stickers! And this young thing here who is 8 years younger then me know nothing bout them. I feel old , not like oh-fuck-I'm-gonna-have-wrinkle, but "wow... I grew up... I'm twenty this year... wow..." , I realised that I already been through my childhood and my teen years.

Me: " Do you, by any chance know Backstreet boys?"

Girl : "Oh yea! I know them."

*A slight relief*

Tiff : " We used to love Nick Carter! Do you?"

Girl : " He's ok... I prefer Jesse McCartney though! And I love JoJo!"

WHAT?! Nick Carter is just okie now... I used to adore him so much. Oh well , I agree that he doesn't look that good now, but when I was her age, he was the hot thing!

Oh well.... Sooner or later , My Chemical Romance to them is gonna be like Carpenters to us. Old but nice. Can you imagine 10 years from now, Light and Easy will be playing Justin Timberlake, My Chemical Romance, Fallout boys

and who knows ,maybe even Linkin Park :p